What to Expect

When Matt and I first found out we were pregnant I downloaded the What to Expect When You're Expecting app on my phone. Since then I have become very addicted to checking it and have learned some great things. My favorite part of the app is the April 2012 forum, where women from all over the world write in with what is going on with them and ask questions about their pregnancy since we are all due during the same month. This morning someone wrote in and asked everyone to share their favorite parts of pregnancy during our final stretch, to give us something to reflect on when things aren't feeling so good later. This got me thinking about my list and I wanted to share some it with you:

I Love...

~how my big belly can be considered "cute" because of it's nice round shape

~seeing how excited Matt is and so involved in everything 

~the feeling of the rolls, pushes, kicks and hiccups coming from Squirt

~my excuse to pig out or eat whatever my mind thinks it wants, without being judged or feeling guilty

~watching the change in Matt already and how attentive he has become to my needs

~seeing my friends and families reactions when they get to feel a little kick

~hearing the heartbeat every time we go to doctor's for an appointment

Another feature on the app is the Tracker page. I put in our due date and it tells me how far along we are, how much further we have to go and the approximate size of Squirt during that week. When I first started checking the tracker I loved watching the numbers go UP each week we get further along but as of the 20 week mark I started noticing the count DOWN part more and can't believe how quickly the number changes as the weeks pass. I'm now in single digits (9 Weeks 5 Days) which gets me very excited and a little worried at the same time. 

I'm not worried about being a good mom or knowing what to do when Squirt comes because I have confidence we will figure it out as we go. But I am worried more about how will I handle the labor and delivery and then how will I handle the lack of sleep after we bring Squirt home. I hope I don't become a jerk or get to moody and say something offensive in the heat of the moment, that I will later regret. I also fear I won't have all the necessary items that a new born needs, I hope that that fear will disappear this month as I have 5 baby showers! Tomorrow afternoon will be my first shower and I can't wait!